I have lost control.. one of the last exams this semester ahead

It seems as though my life's been ruled by University - lately. I kinda hate that. It's some sort of imprisonment. I hate being under pressure- not because I can't cope with it, but because it's annoying. It's unneccessary. I won't achieve neither better nor worse results when feeling someone's grip around my throat. It already sucks to see how my bf's struggling with his studies. It also affects me.

Today I got one paper back- got an A. This motivates me to proceed within my very own path, I have personally chosen. It is as good as always good to resist to go with the others. I have made a lot of weird decisions this fall and winter. Some people turned their backs to me, but I still know, that I did well. On both- a scholastic and personal level. When there are some, who try to force you to chose between two people, it is a natural thing for me, to make the ONE AND ONLY CHOICE- the right one! No one's allowed to treat me like that. Imagine your flatmate telling you not to kiss around in her presence! At first I tried to understand- okay she is single, must be annoying. But then I recalled an older experience of my own- I never told any of my friends, when I was single, to stop doing it! And secondly- come on, it's also my flat. These are some of the examples I can give you. Personally I think we are being forced by life to make difficult decisions. Why can't that be enough?!

okay after yet another journey into my heart I am leaving. I wanna revise a bit and sit the exam. Wish me all luck, I will need it :P

xoxo